Dear Closest Friends,
When I get all bitchy and moody and sulky with you over the stupidest or smallest or most insignificant of things, it’s not actually you or the silly things that have pissed me off. I just take all my strops and moodiness out on you because I am not afraid of losing you, or hurting your feelings, because I have enough faith in our friendship to know that you can take my shitty moods, wheras if I take it out on the people who have actually annoyed/angered/upset me, everything will kick off and I really don’t want to exacerbate things with those people because it will make life too complicated/difficult. So I apologise in advance for when I do this, I know it’s not ideal, but please try to understand it’s not personal, and that actually the reason I do it to you is because you mean more to me than anyone else, bizarre as it sounds.
Okay, thanks. Sorry.
I know this is nothing new in the sense of the world, as this ‘revelation’ is widely known, advised and exploited by people all over the world every day, however for one individual to take advantage of it, no matter how many times they’re told, it doesn’t matter unless they realise it themselves, it has to be a personal discovery.
You just have to look at yourself and instead of reeling off everything you hate and want to change about yourself, take it all in, and be honest, you can’t lie to yourself, but once you’ve taken it all in, say to yourself “you know what, one day, someone is going to love me in the way I want them to.” And believe it too! It won’t be the first time you’ve looked at yourself and liked it, everyone had good and bad days, but it will be the first time you’ll genuinely believe that there is another possible outcome in life other than to die alone with lots of dogs/cats/plasticine models, there’s gotta be someone somewhere in the world who will love you for who you are, exactly the way you are, because, there’s so many people in the world, it would be pretty impossible to not find SOMEONE that wants you forever…it’s just science!